Warning – personal, potentially boring, post ahead…
So, this isn’t necessarily a fun post to type, but it’s an honest, much needed one. It’s probably no secret that having a baby in your midish-late thirties is a little harder on your body. It’s even more so if it’s your third child (all from within your 30′s) and you weren’t in perfect shape beforehand. To be fair to myself, I’d actually lost weight before I became pregnant with Matilda, so I was “ok”, but I still wasn’t where I should’ve been or better said, where I wanted to be. A few months before I became pregnant with Matilda, I’d decided that I was done with trying to deal with my body in the shape it was in and that I needed to do something about it. As unexciting as it is, I joined Weight Watchers online and dude, it totally worked. It wasn’t fun, but it wasn’t completely miserable either. I lost 17 pounds and oh man, it was so much more fun, not to mention easier, to get dressed each day! Of course then Matilda came along and here I am again with pretty much the exact same body that I had before I lost the 17 pounds. Obviously this is my body’s happy weight. Mine? Yeah, not so much. I know that you’re supposed to say you’re losing weight for your health (which, I mean, duh, I am), but I’m going to be 100% honest here, I want to do it so that it’s fun to wear clothes again. Choosing my outfit based on what’s going to best hide my unhappy areas is just no fun. I’m over it. O-ver. It. So, I made a plan this past week and started setting it all up this weekend.
The first thing that I wanted to do before I seriously started worrying about losing weight was to be done nursing Matilda. I wasn’t going to jeopardize that whole process just to fit into my skinny jeans. Recently, I felt that both she and I were ready to move on, so I started that whole process at the end of the week. Here I sit on Sunday night and Matilda’s been only bottle-fed all day long. It’s bittersweet because she’s my last baby, but oh, I’m so glad to have my body back. Not to mention the fact that she still woke up at least once a night to eat. Now, Dustin & I can share that responsibilty and I might finally start getting a full night’s sleep. I’m still trying to process the fact that I can count on my 2 hands how many full nights of sleep I’ve had in the past 9 months. I know that bad sleep habits definitely mess with your weight, so it’ll be interesting to see how that helps.
This morning, I officially weighed myself and took about a bajillion measurements. You guys. Ugh. That was just really painful. But, it’s SO necessary. Not to sound all cheesy, but how can you know how far you’ve gone if you don’t know where you started? So, yeah. Stats have been officially counted and I’m ready to go. The nice thing (hey, positivity!) is that they’re all nice, even numbers, so that’ll make it easy to calculate my differences. It’s the little things, yo.
The final two pieces of the puzzle are the hardest for me. Obviously, I had to mentally prepare myself to start Weight Watchers again. I only did it online last time, but I’m debating going to meetings too this time around. I don’t know. Does anyone have any opinion on that? Anyway, for the time being, I’ll be using the app on my phone to keep me accountable. That whole process starts tomorrow (Monday) and I’m not looking forward to it, but at least I know it works and that helps. The second thing that I did this weekend was to finally sign up for personal training on the Pilates Reformer with my good friend, Molly. She started her own gym, Results Fitness, a couple of years ago and she’s getting amazing results for people (apt name then, yes?). She recently added the PPS Deluxe Apparatus and I honestly can’t wait to try it out. I’m making no promises, but I might throw in some treadmill time too. Baby steps.
So, there it is. I don’t plan on having check-ins or before and after pictures, but I’m sure I’ll give you little updates here and there on my progress. Let’s be honest here, it’s not like I’m the Queen of frequent blogging anyway. The next time I post I may be at my goal weight. HA!
Just for the fun of it, here’s a picture of Matilda and I from earlier this summer. Thanks to my sister, Courtney, for taking the camera away from me and getting this shot. Oh & I actually want to show you some of our amazing family pictures that we just had done, but I’ll save those for their own post. Night!